Saturday, January 16, 2010

Pokemon

Ten years ago, a new pack of pokemon cards gave my life meaning. you seriously couldn't tell me shit. I had a Charizard.

Ten years later, today, i still have that Charizard, but Pokemon cards don't define my life the way they once did. I have learned that like a new pack of pokemon cards, we are put on earth-- some of us as Charizards and the rest of us lowly charmanders-- to evolve into the great pokemon we were all destined to become.. 2009 was a year of substantial evolving for me.

In May, i graduated from high school... barely... i slacked a little too much for MSMS. And i am thankful those people tolerated me. i probably woulda been back at Holly High w/ my black hoodie hustlin hot cheetos and caprisans, 2 for a dollar. holla atcha boi. Thankfully, After graduation, i had around 11 schools across the US to choose from, all full rides, but i ended up at olemiss. . . .

i cant say i developed much academically at MSMS my senior year, but i sure in hell did grow as an individual. and i was a pretty naked individual- emotionally. i was clothed in ignorance , polished by unfavorable trends, perfumed with bad attitude- and how i stunk. i was exaggerating quite a bit. i wasnt really that kind of person. but the point is , i wasnt who i am today.

It was then when i became aware of how indifferent society truly is to us individuals.. That no one one truly gives a damn about you unless you show how much you care for them. would i be better off in NYC? or Los Angeles? ... how i really wanted to go to those places... but my teachers exposed the embarrassing truth through calm, but persuasive explanations .. "truth is ,no matter where you go, you still have to find out who you are and what your purpose is...." later i figured that a place like NYC would probably make it more difficult; you have so many distractions from 'yourself'- this hinders self development. you get me? but Mississippi is ok afterall , i guess... milk is cheap, big booty girls are plenty, and taxes are low.

Its kinda funny that its like this, but it's become evident: How we think people see us is how we began to see ourselves. those collected judgments become the self-image we work towards.. for example... somebody told Gucci Mane they understood him when he talks, so. he sold a record. brrrh. somebody told soulja boy his new shoes were tite, so he starts sellin them? lol.. ughh.

finally, i have learned that you aint NOTHING without NOBODY. imma say it again : NOTHING without NOBODY. i know the grammar is wrong, 'bt hlf ov yal wnt evn knw bcuz u tlk lke dis Newyz'. Everything i have or know is because of someone else. and there's not much i can do in this world on my own. Doesn't matter how smart people say i am ,how funny i can be, how handsome they say i look (lol)... YOU NEED OTHER PEOPLE to make it in this world. Respect people whether they are above or below you socially. FORGIVE and just let shit go...

remember :

Don't carry all that extra baggage with you on the road to success; it's not only emotionally heavy, but it mentally slows the trip. Negative people or other unfortunate events will jump out at you like rape charges on Rkelly. But you're too good to fall for this kind of stuff.. but When it's all said and done, you can find me at the airport. My ticket's been purchased- and I'm headed to the top.

Hop in your jets; start your engines...



I'll race you there

I hope you guys enjoyed reading that as much as I did. It was written as an end of the year note on Facebook by an acquaintance. I hope you can at least get something out of it. Okay this is lazy blogging I'm already so busy with school and haven't been able to be on here.

5 comments:

  1. lol, cos im like i thought she was female....this is pretty good and very inspiring too - goodluck with skool this semester

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  2. Word sister. Sharing is caring afterall...and it makes life so much easier for both participants and more...

    Best of luck with school.

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  3. Don't carry all that extra baggage with you on the road to success; it's not only emotionally heavy, but it mentally slows the trip. Negative people or other unfortunate events will jump out at you like rape charges on Rkelly. But you're too good to fall for this kind of stuff.. but When it's all said and done, you can find me at the airport. My ticket's been purchased- and I'm headed to the top.


    Really well said, thanks for sharing.

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  4. babe, this is deep, real deep! Totally gyngsta!! (lol) funny about the rape charges jumping on Rkelly, lwkmd. Like MyneW said, its really well said... oops, that rhymes.

    Half way tho, i started wondering, "But Suru na babe naw...

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  5. Hmmm...
    I agree with the 'Nothing without nobody' bit.
    I try to deny that to meself sometimes...but hey!

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